True Love

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four o'clock in the morning and i've never been so happy to have insomnia. as i can't sleep, i am reminded of how precious life is as it has been created for the second time for chris and i. in just a couple short weeks, we will welcome our second child into this crazy world. overwhelming? sure. something i have thought about so much lately as i "nest" and question myself as a mom and a wife. can i do this? what was i thinking? am i crazy? especially on the days when a two year old can make you lose a few hairs from your head. but when i watch landon...really watch him, i am speechless. what did i do to deserve such an amazing little boy? what did i do to deserve a man like chris that helped in creating and giving me this family? i am truly blessed. as i am soon to become a parent of two, i have often thought "how am i possibly going to spread love between two?" i love landon so much it hurts. how could i possibly love more than that? it is real and i know that it is going to be amazing. i also know that it will be challenging as landon's world is about to be turned upside-down. But it will be so worth it in the moments when he looks at his sister, when he kisses her little fingers, or when he brings her a toy. and as much as i am looking forward to watching landon with his sister, i am so excited to watch christopher with his daughter. something i know he is very excited to practice saying...that he has a daughter. watching landon and chris in their relationship is priceless. and i am very excited to witness the magic between a daddy and his little girl. i am going to take it all in as soon as she is here. how honored i am to be able to be the very first person to watch him fall in love with her in an instant. just precious. we are very blessed and very anxious to meet her.

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